I see

I see what is happening... i see what will become... and that is what i am afraid of.  i can't stand what is going on, and i have no way to stop it.  I hate that i feel so out of place, why does it always have to be like that.  no matter what, it was like this before, still feeling like this.  i fear the feeling will never go away, and i am not just reading into this.  why do people like that so much, i see it as nothing but annoying.  i did try and will continue to try to stop this, but it has been so long now, and it is still here.  i know that nothing can stop it!  no one understands it either, and i don't know how to explain it so someone can.  try talking to me if you want, cuz i don’t fear I’m just wasting my time.  Until i hear what i need everything else is just a waste of time.

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